D USA
"
Some people come into our lives & quickly go
Some
people move our souls to dance.
They
awaken us to new understanding with the passing
whisper of their wisdom.
Some
people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.
They
stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints
in our hearts, and
We
are never, ever the same."
Dear Korak: someone sent
this to me and I instantly thought of you.
I don’t know if you can imagine how much you have
done for me. You have given me at least
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K Canada.
Beautiful
you are. Thank you for your love. As a promise to
you and in all good for me, I am presently reducing
my drinking.... Talk to you again soon.. It's 4:30
am must go back to sleep....
S Germany.
You, your
big heart and your deep and true words are touching
my soul so divine! It is like listening to a saint!
Your power, your compassion, your ideas are just
conquering the world! It makes me feel good to listen
to you; it gives me hope and inspires me to do like
you! It is wonderful that you are in this world!
I LOVE YOU!
Fr.I France.
Dear brother,
thank you for your message; we are entering Holy
Week: you know how important it is to us: Christ
will die on Friday and be raised on Easter Sunday.
Through him mankind (meaning each of us) will be
able to see God and share his own life! This deep
love in your heart, the one you give to each resident
in Kalighat, every volunteer passing by comes from
Him: He said so:" I am the Path, the Truth,
the Life" (John 14). If not explicitly (meaning
by you confessing his Name from your heart and believing
he is dead and risen for you), you are giving a
true testimony of him living in you, and thus give
him to the persons you meet. This is He that I love
so much in you, Him hiding in the disguise of a
loving Hindhou. And through loving deeds, he is
giving himself to others trough you.
J Canada.
Oh Korak...
my heart is full of joy with thoughts for you. I
am so proud and happy about what you are doing.
I wish to be there to share it with you. If only
there were more people in the world like you....
if only everyone knew someone like you. We would
all be smiling with true compassion. Today you will
start 'Aamar Nijer Club'. I am so curious about
this. Can you please tell me more? It sounds like
a beautiful creation of loving-kindness.
Just realize,
in the 7 years, 2555days, which you spent there
in Kalighat, you brought happiness to an amazing
number of people, you filled their hearts with love
and joy, and you put smiles upon their faces. It
is truly wonderful what you do.
E France.
Thank you
for all that you did for me, opening my eyes to
the love I had for C and praying God for it!!
D USA.
I would hope
that your biological family can appreciate the fact
that they have a god-realized son/brother who has
brought more joy and goodness to the world than
most people can ever dream of.
S Canada.
Such a beautiful
thing it is to hear from you, to read about the
love and purpose that overflow from your words into
my heart. You astonish me; it is wonderful
to be in this life with you. I have felt lost
and confused. Confused by how much good inside
all of us is being wasted, because we have forgotten
the source of happiness. When I try to be
a good person only through the eyes of others, then
I lose sight of the true meaning of giving, and
being human, and letting others be uniquely human.
There are times when I find this pure source, but
it is my greatest challenge to make it come alive
in this country full of, as you say, 'internal poverty'.
I already feel part of your community, though it
may be some time before I come back to India in
my physical being. Thank you for remembering
me, and thank you for letting me realize more of
what it means to be human. I keep your message
in my heart and in my actions, Korak. With you always,
E France.
Dear Korak
be sure that I will be remembering you when I will
be celebrating this special event: Christmas!!!
(I’ll feel you and all your love because only you
is able to love that way truly, strongly and constantly...)
you must know that even though you don t know my
family...they all wish you a wonderful Christmas
too.. You've got a family in France too!!! Be sure
that i know how lucky i am with all my family around
me and that i also think of all the people who haven
t got that luck. I'll be taking care of C too now
that she came back from her theatre trip...i especially
carry you in my heart you must know that ...Your
eternal brother
M France.
I can assure
you that I believe in you and your project.
Since the first time I met you in Kalighat, I know
that you're going to do great things during this
life. Your text touched me a lot, and I printed
it even before you mentioned to do so. I've always
tried to appreciate the good things of the life,
have good feelings for people, but it's even stronger
since I read your message. The events of september
11 touched us a lot in Montreal because we are close
to New York and we share some cultural values with
American people. It's the first time that such disastrous
things happen in our protected world. People don't
know exactly what to think because usually,
we don't like American politics, but now, we don't
have the choice to be with them...
T Australia.
I have been
in Australia since early Friday morning but today
was the first time that I had a chance to email
anyone. I definitely haven't forgotten any
of the three K's and I keep wishing that I was there
with you. Things are so different in Australia
and I am not sure that it is for the better.
I know that it is culture shock, but even though
it is cleaner, and life is easier and we have more
comforts, I long for my little room in New Alipore
and my work and skirmishes with you. It's so
strange. I never had any culture shock coming
to India. I just walked out of Calcutta Airport
and smiled to myself and said that I was home.
I really felt that. Coming back to Australia,
I feel that I don't belong and that I don't want
to. Tell me you are okay, even though I know you
well enough to know that you would never tell me
if you were not okay. I just want to be sure,
I think. I think of you often and love you
as the wonderful friend you have always been to
me.
A Singapore.
Now that
your movie production is over, have u been eating
more? News from Des that you have lost a lot of
weight for the sake of our beloved brothers in Kalighat
worried me as much it inspired me. Just hope you
know that you are being kept in my prayers. And
that from time to time, I still like to talk about
the little giant of Kolkata who makes It perpetually
bright as "day" in parts where others
can see only despair.
L France.
I just want
to tell you that i sometimes have very-very bad
thoughts when i am in Paris (like finishing my life)
i don't support town anymore, my only medicine is
"my" country for the weekend BUT what
will happen next year????
D USA.
I have ABSOLUTE
faith in you, in all that you do and in all that is
created through you.
N France.
With love
for people that open doors and faith that doors
are always open for every one.
H Germany.
You say you
still have a long way to go i think this is very
natural for such a special person like you!
K Canada.
Ahh, Korak!!
Such a wonderful surprise to get an email from you!!
I am very happy for you in that you are, once again,
in your life, coming into a new chapter.. Change
can be undaunting at times, however, it is vitally
necessary for growth, enrichment, keeping the boredom
bug at bay.... I say this not only to you, but also
as a reminder to myself.... I have been depressed
since I returned home last November. Vancouver does
this to me every time I return...I love my cozy
little apartment. I work at a boring job. I hate
it. Really hate it.. Jobs are hard to come by in
these troubled and economically disastrous times.
One must take anything to pay rent and the bills.
So, on I must plod... I have always had a lonely
heart--an endless well for inspiration in arts,
poetry, etc. through various periods in my life--but
Loneliness, my partner, and, Independence, my friend,
have become all too consuming.... I possess a bit
of an "obsessive personality" which comes
and goes. It is dangerous because it sets the stage
for destructive habits to formulate...I have had
bad habits in the past (other than smoking), but,
my current one (began in 1994) in drinking alcohol
is making me gain weight (10 pounds since November),
loose money, forget things, and get less done in
a day.... Example: email peoples.... I have only
expressed this to a selected few because people,
and God forbid, family, can be quite judgmental
and uncomfortable in confronting problems of others....
BUT, hey, I don't want to drone on about my“ downers"...
I am with a smile in my heart that you, despite daily pressures,
put your soul on the line for others in your new
house, Aamar Nijer, and have done your film... Yes,
big time
Korak, with
the genuine love that you possess and the compliment
that you have made to me in emailing me, I can only
say with tears in my eyes right now, that you are
such the active angel in the dirt of this home we
call earth. With folded "Namaste" hands
to you, I am so grateful and blessed in being graced
with being in the presence of your love & soul..
My ex-boss, Yasmin, gave me a paper star lamp, made
in India, for Christmas, which illuminates warm
pinks, blues and gold when I turn it on. It gives
me great joy.. It is on right behind me, and always
reminds me of you, your spirit--ever so far away....
Korak, your star in the evening sky, a part of you
will always be with me. Especially when the rain
lets up here and I can see your star in the sky
in the coming of night... Keep in touch. Sorry to
off-load my personal stuff on you.... God Bless
You and with your work...
P England.
I have not
written because i have been wandering alone and
confused through a wilderness of my own creation
- it is called fear. i have not felt worthy
to write to you because my heart has been impure
- and to me, you are such a pure and radiant being.
i have felt like an animal, running and hiding -
perhaps a rat! - Clinging to anything and everything
- thoughts, fantasies, ideas, people: restless,
restless and never present because i have felt that
the center of my being is something to hide from,
something so empty that i may not call it a home.
And all of the things i take refuge in slip away
from me - none of them lasts, because it is not
possible to hide from being alive. Korak,
i have exhausted myself, and i am learning to give
up on the clinging, needing, hoping, fearfully painting
my own portrait and believing that to be me.
i have become so tired, so faithless, so desperate,
believing that life is a misery, a burden, that
i must do my best to hide from it. Now that
I start to give up this mad game of distraction
and hiding, i am learning to find some peace in
my own presence, in my body, in my essence.
Still, i am afraid - because i know how sick my
mind is. i am learning to watch it closely,
to be vigilant, like a guard watching a doorway
throughout the night, so that i no longer waste
my energy on surviving the madness, and so i may
know the purity of my essence. i feel that
i will have more to give to others as i learn the
lesson of being human. Does this make any
sense to you, korak? Still, korak, I am scared,
because i know that i shall wake up tomorrow, anxious,
needing distraction, something to feed the infinite
appetite of my wandering mind. It is like
i am always counting, because to stop counting means
to die. But now, I give up counting, hiding,
running, and i learn to return home to the lig and
myself! Light that always shines from above.
The anguish i have experienced has been such a blessing,
because it means that i am tired of continuing in
this terrible way, and that i may find a way to
live in the moment, without fear... do you understand
what i am saying, korak? Can you feel this
from me? Please write back, because i need
to hear from you.
J USA.
I am very
happy that things are going so well for you! I can
feel god so much in the things you write me about.
I love you, and I know some other people love you,
I feel that we are like spiritual brothers. We want
the same things in our souls. Of course I have a
long way to go, to love people in the way I want
to. It is so amazing that I met you. There is really
something powerful & good at work in that. Why
does my head always keep telling me not to live
in this feeling, not to trust it? I must be afraid
of what will come from living with god. I must know
how powerful it will be -- even when I say I don't
believe in anything like god or the soul! Can you
believe I still say things like that, after what's
been given to me? But I do.
Next year I am going to the University of
Wisconsin to study math. I visited there last week,
and I liked the place. I met some good professors
and students. I worry because some people are so
engrossed in math that they seem to ignore their
souls. I don't want to be that way.
N France.
May be I
am a martyr, an unknown soldier of love, but we
are all like this. What we always want is inaccessible.
E France.
Korak, my
brother, one week ago, my mother and my little brother,
the one you wrote a letter to, asked me if i had
some news of you because you must know that you
have got a family in France too which is my family.
With all my heart, with all my strength I believe
in you. I think you made the right decision, because
you really want to live what you feel and you wanted
to learn from Mother Teresa love and now you want
to work on your own with the help of your general
manager. I must say to you, that when i saw you
in Kolkata i really knew that God was living inside
you. So now you are ready for your next step and
i really want to see it and to say to you that i
trust in you. I know that your general manager will
help you to do it and I feel it... I wanted to say
to you once more that i believe in you and in your
ability to give love to people. Can you imagine
how much i love you? And how much love i want to
give to you because you have given me so much love
in Kolkata last summer and during the following
year praying for C and me. You know, i hope you
can feel my love because it is very difficult through
emails to tell all the love i have for you... Do
you remember that you told me that one of the most
beautiful thing i can do is to give all the love
i have for one person...i try to do it for C because
I’ve never received such love from any person. It
is her ...i m sure.
S Taiwan.
You know
what? I feel the urge to improve the peace in the
world. I am so afraid of the potential nuclear war
between U.S. and one of her enemy, or more than
one. I need your help. Could you tell me how could
we promote the peace in the world by your experience,
work, and film? I know it might look ridiculous
for somebody, but I know you will think hard to
help me, right? I think somehow I can go to
NYC and DC with you (by the way, Matt lives in DC
right now) and maybe in support of others we could
have a public talk or exhibition or panel study.
I will try to ask someone to invite congressman
or woman in DC to talk to you. That is maybe too
impossible, but I really want to do something for
the peace. And, as Mother Teresa said, LOVE is the
weapon. You will, if you have chance, make more
people understand what LOVE is about.
M Japan.
Your e-mail
makes me happy, it means you make me happy. I passed
my exam! It is not my first choice, but it is not
so importance. I can do my best at any school. My
mind is most importance. And the advices of my friends
are also importance. Congratulation! Your first
film! I feel your happiness, and your loves. The
Film makes all people happy and fill in love. P.S.
Few days ago, S said to me on e-mail, "M is
similar to Korak. Where, I don't know. "My
heart smiled when I read it. We are friend, you,
S, and I. It is so excellent! Our friendship will
be forever...
S USA.
I am doing
fine, but living here in America is still not an
easy task. I am not really feeling like I
can stay at my dads house, and I also feel weird
living at my moms house. I must find an apartment
before I go insane! If I had a place for myself,
anywhere, like a small bedroom where I knew I was
welcome, then I would be a lot better off, and could
start to relax which would be good. Anyways
it’s all part of the lifestyle in America.
Congratulations on making the film.
P Canada.
I am happy
all of that is happening, mister Korak. You believe
so much in you, and you can give so much!
H Germany.
Although
i should not have a single reason to complain -
human flesh is weak. But i have the will to come
through...but sometimes it’s difficult for me to
recharge my batteries.... to find a good input or
sometimes someone to talk to. I am not particularly
feeling lonely. But you always have to be awake
and be working on you. And if you fail from time
to time you have to put yourself together again.
And this takes me far too long and it happens much
too often. Maybe you know what i mean. But moods
change quickly in accordance with your physical
and mental state. It’s difficult to limit your dependence
from exterior influences. But work on it is in progress.
Your little brother.
A India.
Hey all the
best for your work and new initiatives. I am sure
that with God as your general manager, you will
go a very long way. My love and best wishes are
always with you. By the way one of the things that
got me thinking after I read your mail is that
if people are confusing the sisters of the MC with
Mother Teresa, while the sisters are actually human
beings with human frailties, then is it not possible
that all your efforts that you selflessly take
on today will some day be withered away by those
who come after you with human frailties. I feel
that if you see that as a possibility, you
should from ^the very beginning try and put
in place a system where only love matters and not
the crude nuances of human frailties. Once
again, wishing you all the best and hoping that
all the things that you have trained for so
hard will bear fruit under the able stewardship
of God.
E France.
I support
you at 100%!!!
T USA.
I feel like
I can be more "myself" in India--people
here are so pretentious sometimes, and everyone
is trying to impress everyone else with what
they have and where they work. God bless you,
Korak. I miss your smile.
S Japan.
Hello dear
dear Korak? HOW ARE YOU? Incidentally, I've started
my new life in the training course of Agricultural
NGO. Fortunately I'm in internet-available condition
still now. There are more than 30 foreign people
who are living together through the agricultural
food life.(you know, Japan is quite closed country
and seeing foreigner is still quite unfamiliar,
so it's nice place for me to live with foreigner!)The
"foreigner” means mostly from Asian country,
and some of them are from Africa. Some of them
are from Bangladesh some are Tamil people. In my
mind, the word of Bengali is connected with
the memory of you & our Calcutta days,
so I feel so nice to see them! Anyway I'm enjoying
this opportunity, and I'll stay here until next
March. Rural life is very comfortable for me, actually
in city we have to care about much trivial things.
Don't you think so? You must be having very busy
days for your film, making contract or whatever
your activity. But you know, M is coming to Calcutta
soon. I wish you could see him so that I can hear
about you from Masaki even indirectly. Nowadays
C is too hard working to see us. Actually I've not
seen her for a while. C has been working in her
life, but often she ignorant the other things, that's
pity of her.
S USA.
An idea just
popped out of my mind. Are you going to Cannes?
If so, do you mind if you take a trip to U.S. and
somewhere around the world? I believe I could arrange
some public talk for you to share your thought and
the film, the pictures and poems you have done.
If you can bring your artwork here, we could also
try to make your artwork preserved in a more endurable
way. I even want to bring you to Taiwan and introduce
you to my friends in the Tzu-Chi Charity Foundation,
which also does a lot of human relief work around
the world, including lately relief in Afghanistan.
But, it is just a crazy idea. If you agree, I could
arrange the trip for you (from India to Cannes,
to U.S., and maybe Taiwan) and help to collect the
fund. I really hope you will regard this plan is
ideal for LOVE.
M USA.
I am preparing
to become a "special deejay" as you have
said. I am busy working on my deejay mix CD.
I will design the cover in Buffalo this weekend
March8-10. On the inside of the CD it will
say, "Dedicated to the Spirit of Korak Day."
It will be a great CD and many people around the
world will hear it. Are you sad about the violence
in Gujarat? It is very upsetting. What
is wrong with those people? Didn't they learn
anything from Gandhi? Maybe you should go
there and remind them.
D USA.
You never
cease to amaze me. All that you do or all
that is done through you is assured of great success.
As for me, I spend much time studying in a
master's of science program as I am trying to gain entrance
into medical school. The classes and amount
of information we are required to learn seems too
much at times and also too boring! I have
never really enjoyed the way medicine is practiced
here - too impersonal, too much dependence
on drugs and surgery, and often not very effective.
I would comfort myself saying that if I became a doctor,
I would practice differently
J USA.
I'm still
confused about what I'm going to do with myself
after I graduate from college. I really feel that
if I could do what I wanted, I would not go to math
graduate school. I remember you told me the first
day I met you in Kalighat that I should do art things
-- I *felt* that. That's what I really want in my
heart, what I've always wanted. To make something
beautiful. Something beautiful and *human*, which
math is not. I'm worried that if I pursue what I
really want, I'll fail and be unable to support
myself financially. I haven't had very much success
with writing in the past few years. I know I have
talent for it...but it has been very hard for me
to write. I haven't had any inspiration, anything
that made me need to write --except my experience
in Calcutta. I did write about that. I'm trying
to find quiet inside myself, to feel God's presence
and not to worry. Thank you for writing to me!
S Canada.
Your Canadian
brother here! I am in the middle of distracting
law school exams right now, but I have been thinking
(and feeling) much about you, your ideas, your love
and faith in action. Your 'Aamar Nijer - My
Own ' lifts my heart and spirit. One of my
good friends is going back to India in the New Year,
and of course so much of me wants to journey with
her! But that would mean giving
up my studies, my privileged place in this society.
I feel torn, wanting to bridge the many gaps within
myself and between this reality and the one
I experienced in India, not knowing quite how I
can. But I know that I must, and schooling
here seems more interested in forming me into an
individual who can simply carry out tasks for my
own well being. That is not enough. For you
this Christmas Korak, I only wish that you realized
how much you are part of the wonder and inspiration
I feel in this world, which lead me to search and
share with others no matter where I am. God
willing, we will meet again in the future. Namaste.
P Canada
Oh brother
Korak, it has been so long since I received your
message about Aamar Nijer Bari and I want to send
something to let you know how I feel about your
project. This is something very special, the words
you wrote just made me think about how necessary
it is for people to have a place to be themselves,
to be accepted and Loved. There is so much
of a need for a home like what you have described,
and my thoughts and Love are with you always for your
vision and these works of the heart. I am just
starting to do some volunteer service in the downtown
eastside in Vancouver, which is an area of
much poverty and drug abuse.
I shall close
for now, and wish you very much positive Loving
energy to continue bringing such Joy and Beauty
and pure Love through all your projects, films,
music, and just the way you are each and every day~
F Belgium.
Thank you
for your smile. My stay in Kokata with you was so
rich!
E France.
I give you
energy for all you do are finished in a good time
and pray for you to come in France. A dream...will
be become reality!!! You are in my heart every day...
Bye, bye; FFP
T USA.
It is great
to be with my family and to be close to my other
friends again, but that doesn't make me want to
stay here. I have realized that I have changed
a lot in the way I look at things, and that makes
being in America a little bit hard.
S Taiwan.
Congratulations!!!!
I am soooo proud of you! I can't wait to see the
film!!! I couldn't believe that you nearly
fasted for over 6 months!!! You make me worried!!
Don't do it again please! But, I believe you play
the dying vividly and touching! Would you please
put more weight on your body? I could not wait to
see you but I would rather see you in a good shape!
As for myself, the future is bright. In the sense
of LOVE, I believe I will be stronger to love the
world more! Just to be like you, and I will remember
what you have told me.
C France.
My dear dear
Korak, I really happy you send me this synopsis!!!
Really happy!!! Because I feel I can maybe understand
better what you have lived for the past months as
i have seen you during the times you were preparing
to do that role and the. I'm a bit worried about
you and your health... and I don't say it in a maternal
way, but just because I know you want to experience
deeply things you believe in, but I don't want you
to get lost in it. You'll probably tell me that
instead of getting lost, you find your-self and
your way. But this is only my friendly point of
view. I do believe in your way to talk to the heart
of people, so I do believe in your film. And I don't
know what will be the future of it in term of "administration",
but I do believe in it in term of reaching people!
But please, you're great when you have all your
energy to talk with your eyes and your love, so
be careful with your self!!!
S Japan.
First mail
to you of 2002,dear Korak! From Japan which was
once called as one of the "Axis of Evil"!
All of us who worked in Kalighat have the virus
of TB, so the importance is whether we keep enough
physical-strength, nutrition or whatever ordinal
life-style. Such a worry is caused because you are
the hard man. The other day I dreamt of you. You
were like a hardest worker of an advancing company.
With mobile phone, much work, less sleeping, namely
you seemed like a 1960s-70s Japanese hardest worker
(though they didn't have mobile phone). And I couldn't
speak to you in that dream, because I felt it would
be disturbing to you. I know, you have grown up
much more than we worked together, we went to choose
your "Punjabi" or to watch the movie with
C, or so. But even if what kind of situation you
have, you try to exhaust yourself and that is the
reason I respect you. But at the same time it makes
me worry about your health condition too, you know.
In Japanese, the Chinese character of meaning “Human”
has shape of the meaning "among-individuals".
Exactly, we are "human". Among the people
or society our lives is composed, even grieving
or poverty. Between you & I or the other, only
there is love, anger, pleasure, loneliness or so.
Because we are "Human”, in Japanese we say
"Nin-Ghen". From Nin-Ghen S to
Nin-Ghen Korak=day.
D USA.
You’re missed
and i also miss the feeling i got when I was at
kalighat, which was one of knowing you were doing
something pure and good.
E France.
Korak I guess
what you are doing but i m quite worried about you...
i guess that you are now trying to get the shape
for your film but.... take care...you know that
you count so much for so many people in that world
that you must take care of you...Lots of love your
eternal brother E.
S Taiwan.
It is really
hard, and we both know it. Yet, I am not afraid
of it, because you are my model to endure it. Please
tell me more about your lover. Why can't you be
together?
A USA.
I am happy
for you Korak and send you all the good feelings
for your success that I have. You are a special
person and a gift of God. I pray that you are able
to fulfill all that he has for you to do.
N France.
Happy New
Year to you also korak!!! I hope you will still
bring as much love as before to all the people who
come around you. My resolution for this New Year
is based on simplicity and i will try to stick to
it all over the year! What is your resolution of
the year, maybe none since you are nearly a perfect
man! But it is also one to try to keep to your values,
which are amid the best i encountered in my life!
A USA.
I am happy
for you Korak and send you all the good feelings
for your success that I have. You are a special
person and a gift of God. I pray that you are able
to fulfill all that he has for you to do.
N France.
Happy New
Year to you also korak!!! I hope you will still
bring as much love as before to all the people who
come around you. My resolution for this New Year
is based on simplicity and i will try to stick to
it all over the year! What is your resolution of
the year, maybe none since you are nearly a perfect
man! But it is also one to try to keep to your
P Canada.
I just wish
to send you some Love, although there are many miles
between us, may our Hearts have wings and carry prayers
on the wind...so that there may be more Love
and Light and Joy in the world. Korak, I thank you
for your message at Christmas time, I did think
of you and it was a special time with family that
I had not seen for years. I shared the letter you
sent about Aamar Nijer with J. and she felt deeply
about your words and sent her feelings and energy
along to you. Please send me a message when you
have a moment, and I will write again soon...
M France.
Hello Korak,
how are you? You can't imagine how much I miss India!
I live in Montreal since July. My friends are in
another city and I miss them a lot. It's difficult
to find real friends in a new city. Friendship is
so precious, and like a treasure, it's often
hidden in a place beyond suspicion. I work hard
here in Montreal. This month, I work in a emergency
room and I see so many horrible things I couldn’t
imagine before. Medicine is a special
profession, because in the same day we can see births
and people dying. We are confronted with basic (but
wonderful) realities of life. No superficial thing.
And it's amazing to see how much people of a family
realize that they love each other when they are
in a hospital. There are some things we should never
forget. In January, I'm going to specialize in psychiatry.
I'm going to care for the unloved ones. "A
madman is a child that we never had dreamed
of." And how about you, Korak? What's going
to be the subject of your movie? Your e-mails always
put a smile on my lips.
N France.
I had to
move to Berlin in Germany, find again the western
way of life when you always run, just look after
yourself: THAT`S GREAT... needless to say how I
miss India! I hope you still are the sunshine of
Kalighat and you still illuminate all the volunteers
you meet! I wanted to thank you for all that you
have learnt to us, how to appreciate life and love:
I returned definitively changed from this trip and
I am so eager to come back!....Last week end, we
made an " Indian party" in Paris with
manu, celine, marie, gaelle, edouard... the trilogy
"kolkata, kalighat, korak" came back often
and nostalgia was quite strong. Hope we will not
forget the lessons of life we learnt from India.
Di USA.
All that
you create will be a great success and touch many
people.......I have no doubt......
Da USA.
Our offices
are only three or four blocks from the trade center
but we are ok. I was fortunate enough to be
running a bit late that morning (just as at Teresa’s,
no?) when i heard a tremendous explosion.
i looked out of our apartment window in Brooklyn
and saw the second explosion (not the plane it was
on the other side of the twin towers) the
world trade center/twin towers before last month
could be viewed clearly and closely right from our
apartment window. It was one of the nicest
things about our apartment...the view. I was
staring out the window when the first tower fell.
It was the saddest thing i have ever seen and the
older people here say the same thing. Evangeline
was in route from her office to our home as the
first building collapsed and i have never been more
frightened in my life. She got home ok and
we were watching the television for news reports
and as we were watching a picture of the last tower,
it too fell down. We knew that so many...thousands...of
people would be starting work that day inside.
You have never been inside, but i have hundreds
of times. It is like a city inside.
I have begun
to believe that i suffer from some biochemical imbalance
that drags my spirits down (i.e. clinical depression).
I still have this tremendous drive to be a great
man but i don't feel like one inside. I think
that i hate that i realize that i am a mere human.
I have no
doubt when it comes to you. You are destined
to make a wonderful contribution in this world even
if it may be in a way you have not realized.
I believe in you. Truly do.
De USA.
I'm very
excited for you, and of course I have faith in you.
I know I didn't spend much time with you, but I
spent enough to know that you have the strength
to do whatever you choose. I'm so excited that things
are underway!
N France.
In France
people think about pleasure of food, pleasure of
sex, pleasure in work, pleasure with family, pleasure
time. Always pleasure. (Not really a reality for
all!). What do you think about this hedonism? Is
that egoist for you? At work, people laugh about
my vegetarianism. I laugh too! (Why not) And all
the meal, there are some joke about this. Those
people have good heart. But they finally don't understand
this choice, this feeling and this difference. People
like me, and may be they don't respect me as I want.
I have Faith in you too.
E France.
In fact it
is true that some moments are difficult in loving
somebody ...i mean loving like we talked about...it
means madly...without shocking the person...because
you know me a little bit and you must know that
i am madly sensitive. It means that when i fall
in love with one person (which is very rare) i want
to love that person madly but.. Try to understand
that in France people are different ...that means
that when you show them your heart, they become
afraid of seeing such strength and like me when
you begin to talk to me in Kolkatta they put barriers
so as not to be touched too much by your love...For
the time being, i tried to love her as much as i
was able to...and i will not stop now...but you
know i m a human being and sometimes you feel despaired
because you don t get that much love from the person
although you give what you can...and like you i
need so much love too that it is difficult sometimes
to love without being loved the way you d like to
be loved i know it is completely stupid but that
s what happened to me 2 days ago. C and I and people
of Kolkatta went to a party and she left early in
the night and i was so disappointed that she left
that i told her something that hurts her ...you
know sometimes i m very awkward as I cannot tell
all my feelings to people Then i wanted to tell
you that you can trust me ...you know ...i m not
one of those who thinks that love is just a way
of getting somebody...i perfectly know all the strength
that you need to love really someone.. and all the
time it takes ...and then ...i could not tell that
to you in Kolkatta but now i know that i am really
in love with her. That s why i wanted to tell you
DON T WORRY FOR ME AND DON’T TELL ANYBODY (especially
her) WHAT I M TELLING YOU...but especially i wanted
to thank you because although you re not there i
can feel you saying to me " cheer up Emmanuel".
Thank you from the heart. Your brother, in heart.
N France.
My life is
so simple Korak that I have nothing to say! My life
has nothing exciting in general. May be it's a corner...
I meet recently some people I love. This people
I love, they are simple, and they are at the bottom
of the hierarchy, with no dream but with love. They
just laugh with you with pleasure and complicity.
These peoples don't have projects, didn't make long
study but they know the most important: to be happy
now, now... In this time, I do not build myself.
Out of my work I do nothing. That's not a good way.
I need to meet other people with other condition,
other culture. I read some books of occidentals
who traveled in India, in Nepal. I also read Howard
Butten: "when I was 5 years old, I killed me".
A doctor that studies the handicap headed people.
People who live in special house like hospital but
live in another world. I also read a comic book
about the Spanish society "sans nouvelles de
Glurb" interesting! They are very lovely film
in france now like "Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie
Poulain". A very very very simple film. Lot
of love. A little comic with the critics of our
French society. A woman work in a "bar"
a coffee, she fall in love and it's very difficult
for her to accept it. She also has a father who
is alone. And lot of other people who live in Paris
but are finally alone. So she decides to make happy
this entire people. She organizes love between the
others, every one is happy, but not her. It's easy
for her to give love, to build love for other but
not for herself! I saw yesterday "Une hirond |
