2004/
January 28th
A Man is Known by
his Enemies
Our
forefathers said, “A man is known by his enemies”.
If they really mean it, then I think that I am growing
as a man by that standard as the numbers of my enemies
are growing fast and for that matter the deadly
ones. On top of that I am a strong Sagittarian too!
It’s not a big deal here in this village (being
the most dangerous place here), to cut someone into
pieces and for one to disappear without any trace
ever. So if you think that I am bothering you with
this article then you may know that the article
writer, me, may not exist soon. I am living on the
edge of a knife/ sword/ gun. But I will continue,
‘come what may’ to do what I am doing even if I
have a drop of life left within me.
I never knew it so strongly
as I know it today, how a man or a group of men
get insecure when they see their women getting self-dependent,
smart, strong with a voice of their own. The above
especially in a society where women till now (and
for many, still) are treated as nothing more than
“things”. To use and throw, as furniture in homes,
as a sand bag to practice boxing on or as a child
producing machine.
If you had followed my previous
articles (www.korakday.com/Articles.htm)
you would know about my work with women and children
to make this village which becomes the shameful
part of the modern mess and hypocrisy of our world
called a “city”. I am trying to make it into a Self-Dependent-Village
where its future is secure (and thus the future
of the world) by trying to give the best of education
to those children who can’t afford to go to schools
because their parents cannot afford that and they
are living in a 6 x 6 feet home where they are living
with another ten siblings and a big family. Besides
that I am trying to make the future makers, that
is their mothers and to-be-mothers, the women strong
within themselves by giving them education, trained
hands, no-loss business and all I could…. this is
a very conservative and an extremely poor Muslim
village within a city in Bharat (India) called Kolkata,
formerly known as Calcutta.
I
had been facing all the wrath of people who are
established here. People having little knowledge/education,
politically influenced people, religiously fundamental
people, NGOs who want the children to continue to
look and behave like beggars and do not care what
hell the children may reach if they are just pampered
like beggars and have no studies only leaving them
and their parents to have no dignity and self respect
to grow upon. NGOs and charity organizations which
could be more suitably named as NGO
businesses/Charity Businesses in the externally
poor places of our “left to rot” world, and this
continues with a lot pomp and glory in such countries
and in difficult times all over the world. It becomes
all about showing the dirt to arouse more pity and
thus snatch more money from people. Thus
preserving the poverty, dirt, illiteracy, helplessness
and all those things, which these organizations
take money to remove. In that process at
least one thing surely happens and even happily
so and that is, the people of the organizations
and the so-called removers of poverty and the messieurs
of charity get rich and richer. (It doesn’t matter
even if the money taken is the money earned or rather
the better word is money looted by the rape of the
blood/body/ spirit of humanity). In my short life,
I have seen deeply such things starting from the
extremes of charity and NGO organizations to the
big organizations which work here.
To
read about the resistances I face here from the
above-mentioned people everyday, read my previous
articles at (www.korakday.com/Articles.htm).
Since Aamar Nijer - My Own, is about LOVE, feelings
and about making a person have strength inside them
and as I do not have to prove myself to any man
or to show or look for external things out of all
the works I am doing here. The only people I have
to prove myself to is my “Self” and to Allah/God/Bhagwan/Wahe
Guru/Jehovah etc. So it becomes a big responsibility
that all the children / women/ everyone who become
related to Aamar Nijer - My Own to get only “THE
BEST”.
I
never wanted to be like most of the people in this
world who “want to” do something for people who
are the victims of poverty, modern hypocrisy, for
those who are loveless, friendless, unguided, suffering
within their spirits, for women who are only suppressed
and tortured and children who just got unlucky as
they were born to parents who have become our victims
and couldn’t afford their children’s education and
have to force their children of age THREE into doing
a job, helplessly. I can’t
just sit quietly and practice Yoga for giving me
peace and serenity and pretend that I am too busy
with my job/studies/ life and everything else.
And then just to wash away my guilt, I give a little
bit of a donation from the excess money I have and
in return I want either the people I have given
money to, to pray for me for life or a ticket to
heaven. I have rejected such conditional-charities
in heaps. The latest I rejected was a sum of US$
14 Millions a few days back.
Giving is the most beautiful
thing a human can do. But
not giving that is conditional and never comes free
and also most importantly never makes us free too!
The right word maybe, is “SHARING” because
that involves from my share: Love, selflessly and
sharing something free of any external thing or
free of any showing off. This is Love-Oriented.
This is what I do in Aamar Nijer - My Own and this
is what some of my friends from around the world
do in Aamar Nijer - My Own.
Anyway, coming back, earlier
I was the one who was attacked only, by the people
here who have developed jealousy against me. This
was inspired by the fact that all of us want to
do something nice and good but we end up not doing
it, but when someone from outside comes and does
that which we all know that we are supposed to do,
then our HIGH VOLTAGE EGO
doesn’t like it and cannot accept all that and cannot
bear to see and bear that person who does this.
That’s the reason I do not feel bad about the people
who are trying to kill me and all that I am trying
to do with only god as my partner. I have no complaint
or any kind of grudge against them at all. Anyway,
these people now are attacking the teachers of our
ANTS International (Aamar Nijer Training School).
They are terrorizing the teachers,
their families, relatives and friends. These
teachers are those whom I found and realized to
be in very distressful and helpless situations.
All teachers and women have a story of difficulties
they were going through earlier. I wanted people
from that same village to do the jobs of our schools
here which could earn a little money for the women/children/men
and families in this area and in that way the real
needy get identified and shared with.
I told a friend of mine who
called me sometimes back from USA, that the
Devil/Iblis is working REAL HARD on me and
now even with all those related with the work here.
To see that this beautiful thing of Truth, Love
and FAITH cannot survive and topple so that only
the evil may survive, flourish and get much stronger
as it has been a norm in our modern day world. But
I have told my teachers that they are free to leave
me because they still have a choice but I will not
stop at all, what I am doing. If
they cut my legs like they wanted to, I will go
limping. I will continue to do this till they completely
kill me. I do not care if I am completely
alone in this work I am doing here as I am doing
now (but it is also true that I do not accept just
‘anyone’ to share the work, here. It’s not the intention
to do something, which makes us what we do. It’s
our actions, our motivations behind those actions,
our love, FAITH behind our very hard-working and
determined actions; which makes us capable of sharing.)
Anyways I will continue even if I am completely
left alone because I have FAITH, a complete FAITH
that the real in-charge of
Aamar Nijer - My Own is god, NO LESS!!
May be our modern enslaved brains will not accept
this, when I say that the in-charge of Aamar Nijer
- My Own is god, but I have seen many unexplainable
miracles here and so have people directly attached
to the work of Aamar Nijer - My Own here.
You know since the beginning
of this year, some enemies of the work here have
cut the electricity cables and we have majority
of our classes for our little children after their
day of work finishes, that is in the evening and
night. So when the whole world is proceeding towards
most modern lighting systems and deserts
of USA like San Francisco and Las Vegas and other
parts of the externally rich world are turning into
external air-conditioned Paradises, we here are
forced back to the olden days of candles
and oil lamps (disregarding the extra amounts of
money spent in these difficult times of very little
money I have as I am still unable to extract time
out to sell the film, music, cards and other stuff
I make and get made to earn money for all the work
here). This cutting of electric cables towards ruining
the tender eyes of at least the children, forget
us, the teachers and the women etc who have at least
seen some life and some world, but these children
are yet to see anything of this BEAUTIFUL world.
This along with major dangers of fire accidents
because there are so many children here and just
like all the children they are also playful.
I know that god knows about
the dangers to the children and their eyes, also
about the major death threat
I got yesterday which as planned will be
carried out soon (you know my parents, relatives,
and all who care for me are telling me with all
their force to stop all that I am doing and in the
way I am doing, but my heart tells me to continue
and my brain no longer rules me and my brain is
dictated by my heart)! But despite the death threats
I am continuing and will continue, EVEN ALONE. Because
what to do, its me who have taught my children and
women:
“Love has a beginning
but has NO end.
And the only Destination
of Love is to “GROW MORE”.
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